Holidays!

Hey!!!!! I went with my mom and my girls to my brother robert's house for christmas party and dinner and we had good time and enjoy to have play with my neices that cutie was kaden and skylar to get know each other and i was trying to teach them to sign language but they were so shy!!! i love that to play and misses my families alot because no car ya know what i have and I had good time with all of them and misses my daughters alot because they are old enough and they can handle for now because my mom raised them since they were lived there in muskegon but I am glad that girls made it to through with my mom to grow up that i realized that girls needs nana to be safe for them to stay there and better life because girls wants live with Nana that i understand how they feeling and i have to accept that and I wish to be raise my own daughters but I am afraid that to lose them because my ex whatever person might be take them and no way that be safe with my mom til graduate for them to better life.....I am glad that they accepted that to stay there and i can visit them and finally I did look around at my mom's apartment WOW its beautiful that cutie rooms! I loved that ! My mom told me that robert did made it alot for my mom that I am proud of my bro! also I can see that alot of woods there instead no plains wall anywhere! I had good time for Merry Christmas!!!
Happy Holidays!

I was A mom...someone sent me that Poem here...

Before I was a Mom
I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom - I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom
I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put them down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom -
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.
Before I was a Mom -
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom.
Send this to someone who you think is a pretty Mom.
I just did!"

hopefully understand how I feel.....

I always want to join with my hearing family but no communication to talk and i hate to write the paper that waste paper to talk and i know my families wishes me to hear from them or voice and they will happy to hearing my new voice when i have speech threapy and practice to hear from phone and i wanted to communication to my daughters but i have to sign language because if they dont understand me so i can sign when i do same time to use my voice and will help me follow up with my sign language and voice my mom know that i always do that and I really want to talk with my families also they will happy to hear from me like own my voice like new person to talking to my family walkers and wheelers that I dont want to be lonely like left me out not talk anyone because i am deaf but i did not meaning that to be negative thinking because that my feeling that way because when i talk to people and they always look other person to talk like i did not finish because i cant talking my own voice that they dont understand me what i saying like rusty speech that I want to coclhear implant and get to be new person to be me ......please let me know is it good idea and i dont care what is my age to be old and i still have time to get that and i hope you understand how i feeling and i am really READY for Coclhear Implant! thank you and Wish you warm for Merry Christmas! i will Keep You Posted!

Good News!

I am sorry to not show up for jenny's concert last monday because Kent and I had to go with my best friend Sam and Melissa to go Grand Rapids , Michigan hospital because Sam had surgery for cochlear implant to become hearing person and I had to see because I want to know how he feeling after surgery done and I am so sure that I want to be getting coclhear implant to be hearing person that reasons I want to see myself to see so I won't be afraid to feeling to get surgery that i am so sure that i am going to be having coclhear implant that now i am not afraid anymore because my mom want me to be coclhear implant when i was 12 years old that i was so scared to see that something show from picture to how through that i was so young to be scared and i was realized to be handle it to get pain after surgery now i am so understanding clear to through what sam did ........ya dont understand then asking my mom about it and she will tell you ! And i will keep post for me to get coclhear implant for appointment and approve for this and i will let ya know how through this okay and keep posted !

Make Wishes

""""I am picking 12 women (who have touched my life) and whom I think would want to participate. I hope I chose the right twelve. Please send this back to me (You'll see why). In case anyone is not aware, Saint Theresa is known as the Saint of the Little Ways. Meaning she believed in doing the little things in life well and with great love. She is also the patron Saint of flower growers and florists. She is represented by roses.May everyone who receives this message be blessed. Theresa's Prayer cannot be deleted. REMEMBER to make a wish before you read the prayer. That's all you have to do. There is nothing attached. Just send this to twelve people and let me know what happens on the fourth day. Sorry you have to forward the message, but try not to break this, please. Prayer is one of the best free gifts we receive. Did you make a wish yet? If you don't make a wish, it won't come true.This is your last chance to make a wish.St. Theresa's Prayer:May today there be peace within. May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be. May you not forget the infinitepossibilities that are born of faith. May you use those gifts that youhave received, and pass on the love that has been given to you. May you be content knowing you are a child of God. Let this presence settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love. It is there for each and every one of us.Now, send this to 12 people within the next 5 minutes. And remember to send this back. I count as 1...you'll see why.""""

you will love it to watch!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7gSZfW4gVhI

I found more wolves!!!

Oh wow it is there more wolves..I love to looking more wolves in images from www.google.com.......

Awwww! Howling it is?

How Cutie???

I love that to find roses with wolves!!